I honestly feel like Alex from the movie Hitch, but instead of dealing with guys, I’m dealing with women’s problems, and in the middle of it all, I can’t seem find love at all.
Who’s next? (I should be getting paid for my services lol)
The past has come back to haunt me once again.
No matter how much I leave it behind and move on in my life, she never seems to disappear from my dreams that happens once to a few times every year. It’s a thing of mine… whenever something bad happens in real life between a female and I, I start dreaming about it right after. Fortunately, its not the case for almost all girls, but this one girl in particular, who I really cared for, and felt that I really screwed up with back in high school, is just appearing in my dreams over and over again…
In this dream, she was doing some sort of presentation in a gym. Wearing an all red dress, red heels, long brown hair, just all sorts of sexy. At first, I couldn’t make out who it was during the presentation, but after all of it, she turned her head a little to talk to other people, and right then and there I recognized her in an instant and called her by her name. She turns around, sees me, and her smile goes away, completely. Tried starting a conversation with her, but she didn’t want to talk to me at all and didn’t want me talking to her period. Her mood went from happy to serious / angry in a heart beat, then a tear runs down her right cheek… I’m telling her that I’m trying my best to start something with her, and she’s telling me that she knows that I’m going to bring up the past again and that she doesn’t want to hear any of it…
I’ve had dreams where I’ve seen her in a subway station, angry at me and not talking to me, or one dream where I spotted her at a wedding event, and she got all serious / angry and shit, and she never wanted to talk to me, even after trying to apologize and move on from everything that happened in the past.
Even in this life, I’ve apologized, and moved on, and yet, she still appears in my dreams every now and then… its actually disturbing…
I wish I could turn back time and rewrite whatever I did back then. I wish I could make things right. Unfortunately, this is the result, and I can’t change it. I can only accept the consequence which is losing direct contact with her and possibly not seeing her anymore…
Leena, you deserve somebody better. I’m not one of them.
It’s hard to find new ways to say
How much I love you
What I think of you
I love you, I need you, I want you, etcetera, etcetera
It’s hard to write a love song
That has something new to say
Without using old cliches
I love you, I want you, I miss you, etcetera, etcetera
- John Entwistle
Relationships are not meant to be complex. I believe they’re meant to be simple, but men and women alike have killed it completely. The relentless bullshit I get on a constant basis from women is… pretty much bullshit. Nobody deserves to be treated in such a fashion where both parties want to stab the shit out of them.
How about apologizing for your wrong doings?
Trusting some more instead of snooping into people’s phones trying to get some dirt?
Complimenting about how beautiful she is / how handsome he looks?
Go out more together, stop complaining about small things, communication?
Stuff like that. If people were to set boundaries, respect them, trust, communicate, maybe innovate powerful & positive and fun ideas to have an even stronger relationship, then I believe relationships would be a whole lot simpler.
It’s hard to find somebody nowadays. People need trust & communication for a relationship to work, and in today’s culture, its not there. - Chang-Kee
I might not have somebody special next to me, but she’s out there, waiting for me.
Certain females that never cared about you start noticing you and try to hop on your shaft when:
1) They’re having problems with their boyfriend
2) Their boyfriends leave them for another girl
3) You’re Successful and making loads of cash
And with that said, I post this link.
A lot of things have been on my mind as of late, and I thought I share it here.
Middle Eastern girls who are Muslim. I’ve met quite a few throughout my lifetime. Especially one that I’m working with at my job; attractive, goofy, smart, independent, beautiful accent and down to earth person. Pretty much someone that every guy would want to date, right? But the one thing that stops most of them dead in their tracks, is the fact that she’s Muslim, and in that religion, if a man is non-Muslim he cannot date nor marry a Muslim girl (stated in Qur’an). But on the flip-side, a Muslim man can marry a non-Muslim woman with ease… which I think is fucked up. What’s even more fucked up is if a woman of Islamic faith, marries a man who is non-Muslim and / or converting from Muslim to be a christian or whatnot, that woman ends up murdered by her own family members / non-family members of the Islamic faith, in other words, “Honor Killing”.
I’ve heard stories on the news of a Pakistani girl killed by their own brother and father in Mississauga… just because she wanted more freedom and away from the stresses of the Islamic Tradition and her own fathers rules. I’ve read about Malala Yousafzai who got shot in the head by a Taliban because she endorses education. A Sudanese pregnant woman who was sentenced to death because she converted from Muslim to Christianity. Another pregnant Pakistani woman killed by family members in broad daylight for marrying the man she loved… should I go any further?
The human race is sickening, especially these kinds of humans. It makes me livid cause its like these women don’t even have a chance at ALL! Even much as one religion shouldn’t dictate that all religion should be abolished, religion has divided people and has cause more damage and is continuing to do so to this day. Christianity is another. Me personally, I can’t find love and happiness through religion as much as I was brought up a Christian, and I only believe in God. What I CAN take from it, is that you should love others, the ten commandments, and pretty much anything from the bible that makes sense to me and which I can apply in my life. In terms of who I want to choose as my girlfriend (who can lead to be a potential wife), I will love her for her, and I would want her to be the same. To see one feel wanted, loved, and happy, with no strings attached and shit, is the best feeling ever. Religion should not even have to play a part in the relationship and throughout, especially when it comes to women who are Muslim. Trying to convert somebody is a waste of time, but I feel for the ladies who follow the faith. To the family members of that faith: if you are a religion of peace, why are so many women getting murdered to death for loving somebody outside their own faith? It’s not stated in the Qur’an, and I’m definitely sure that there are people of that faith who are completely against it and not just others like myself who are non-Muslim. It is inhumane and for those who support this are sick in the head.
In conclusion, I feel every person has a right to love somebody. Religion is man-made to control people but all it has done is cause chaos. I feel without religion, we wouldn’t have anything to kill or die for, and the world would be a much better place to live in, and no book to dictate our lives. I would date a Pakistani girl who is Muslim. I’m not afraid to say it. If she wants to change her religion, so let it be. If she wants to marry this man right here, let it be. Don’t murder women for having options and opinions. Its their joy you’re taking away. They are human too.
Also, Love Marriages over Arranged Marriages. That is all.