So, I just had a very eventful day with one of my great friends in Toronto; Long walks & japanese food! and somewhere during our time together, she asked me if I’ve been seeing any girls or have a girlfriend. My response to her was a simple “no”, and it led onto a conversation about girls mostly and how most of them act nowadays, which I couldn’t agree more with, and its something that I’ve been experiencing throughout my interaction with ladies alike. So here it is…

1) This specifically goes to women who plays these so-called games with men, for I think most women nowadays are too snobby and illogical thinkers. It’s such a pain in the ass to deal with these types, and its something that I’ve seen happen to other men like myself. Its like you know what you want, but you settle for shit. Leading men on; playing with their minds as if they’re puppets on a string for your own entertainment. It’s women like you who deserve / should deserve hell in your life for messing with the wrong people, when all we’re trying to do is to get to know you more better, whether we’re hanging out or not.

2) You want men to respect you, and you want a man to know you for what you are on the inside and not on the outside, yet you got a certain shape and clothing on you which all men can’t ignore since we’re visual creatures, and dissing us to your friends or other guys for no reason, without even thinking that maybe he could be looking for something more than just your body. Don’t blame us men for having our eyes on your assets when you’re mostly showcasing them on purpose. Some men call that “Thirst Trap”.

3) No bitch can ever be straight up with a dude. It’s like you’re digging a bigger whole for you to be buried in without even realizing it. If a man is interested in you and you’re not interested in him at all, don’t waste his time. He can be better off with somebody else or doing something else instead of having to deal with a female who can’t seem to make up her mind. It’s either you’re interested in him or you’re not. We’re not psychics.

It’s like a guide book for a generation of women that doesn’t even exist. It’s the stupidest shit. Like, whether its just wanting to be friends and getting to know the girl, that girl makes it either hard for you, or to the point where she can’t even be trusted anymore. I’ve had that happen to me countless times, and its like a never-ending cycle that will keep going on and on unless a purge happens. I have no reason to play games with women, cause that’s not what I was raised to do. Why would I want to waste my time fucking with women’s feelings when I can just give them honesty? Isn’t that what you women want? Honesty from a man? I feel like I’ve said so much about love, men & women, wants, needs, to where I’m just really tired of it. I can only have so much patience for these things, but its running thin… I equally blame the men out there as much as the women for their way of thinking as well for the women to act this way…….

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  • 2 weeks ago

You ever had any thoughts about shooting someone or just stabbing somebody multiple times in the back because that somebody you thought was your friend, was just using you like a puppet on a string?

I think I just care too much. I feel that more of my feelings are being let out too easily (or just being too open about myself) instead of logic coming into play, but hey, I’ve learned a lot of shit the hard way throughout my life so I see no end to this…

Ontario, you got to have the worst selection of women, period. Why almost all of my posts has to be about women and shit, cause women right now piss me the fuck off and they make me want to line them up in no particular order and kick them in a fucking big ass black hole while I’m yelling “THIS IS SPARTA!”.

One song that is just playing in my head like a broken record, Sung by Nelly Furtado and Jelleestone: Friendamine

Bible says love your enemies, people say to forgive and to forget. I’ve been following that path for way too long… doesn’t mean I’m going to stop doing it for those that deserve it most, and I don’t curse people.

Know who your true friends are… don’t trust no bitch that will only be there for a moment, and especially those who have boyfriends (jealous or not)… I could say more, but that is all…

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  • #livid #pissed #friendship #lies #deceit #pain #bitch #back stabbers #girls
  • 1 month ago

Competition ♂ ♀

Why in the world does there have to be competition for a girl that you like? What is there to gain from all this? Probably some ass and move on to the next girl.

Like no matter which girl it is, I end up finding out that another guy is on “pursuit” for this woman, and that I already “lost” and shit, or how I need to step my game up since he’s got the girl wrapped around his finger.

It’s the stupidest shit. All this competition to gain a woman’s heart is not worth it. I rather just be myself, build a friendship with her, and down the road, if she decides that she wants to be with me, then so be it. If nothing happens, nothing happens.

Realistically speaking, the ultimatum lies in a girl’s hand for who she wants in her life. I just don’t think “Competition” really go hand in hand with who I am as a person.

♂ ♀

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  • #boyfriend #girlfriend #chasing #competition #relationships #friendships #stupidity #opinion
  • 1 month ago

Hanging Out = Dating? + Jealous Boyfriends

I think its fucked up that this generation of women and men included has fucked up the term “hanging out”. Nowadays when I’m asking a girl if she wants to hang out, its taken as “asking you out on a date”.

No, I’m not asking you out on a date. If I wanted to go on a date with you, I would be asking you “Do you want to go out on a date with me?” I’ve been getting this shit throughout my teenage years til now, and its getting real annoying at this point.

Jealous boyfriends fit this category too. Early afternoon I asked one of my friends if she is free tonight so we can go play some rhythm & racing games at Playdium, says she’s won’t be available and that she’ll be with her boyfriend and sister for the weekend. I’m like okay, cool. Then the boyfriend apparently takes her phone, sends me text messages saying how I should lay off, why I keep “asking her out on a date”, and the one question that pissed me the fuck off, “Would you like to be the ‘third wheel’?”.

This was laughable at first but it got me thinking how fucked this generation of people are. I can’t deal with stupidity. Nothing about women that would make me say, “this girl is very interesting and fun to be around with; I would like to know some more about her”. It’s like these girls have fucking zippers on their lips; can’t they speak up and let me know if they wanna hang and not leave me in the dark? And I wonder to myself how do the teenagers nowadays get it so easy? It just makes no sense to me. Jealous boyfriends are pussy. Period. Just because I’m on good terms with a girl and accepting her for her, doesn’t mean I’m trying to ask her out on a date and bang her, and then he wanna say some shit like “You Got Me ;)”, bitch please… Jealous boyfriends need their balls cut off so they don’t reproduce stupidity in the world and ejaculate all in the women’s insides.

It’s completely a waste of time having to deal with these things. I don’t play games with people, women especially. It would be real great if my time wasn’t disrespected and wasted all these years, cause I could’ve been doing something better with it.

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  • #relationships #friendships #boyfriend #girlfriend #hanging out #dating #third wheel #jealousy
  • 1 month ago
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Friend Zoning Yourself?

I never really did put thought into this. Usually its the other way around where females say they see you more as a brother or their best friend and that it could hurt the relationship between each other.

Thinking about it now, It’s bringing me back to that one episode from Zoey 101 where Chase and Zoey actually had feelings for each other, and Chase fucked up his chances by waiting til Zoey moved to another school.

"Friend Zoning Yourself"… I’m usually friend zoned / let down easy by women, but friend zoning yourself? … maybe losing out on opportunities to get the girl you’ve had a crush on but waited til the last minute to tell her how you felt about her or asking her out even? Or probably just like the other way around, he only sees her as a friend and nothing more, and fucks up cause he could’ve had something great with her…

It’s also making me think back in 2010 when I was working at a factory and saw this cute indian girl, and waited til the last day of work to tell her how i felt. She thanked me but said it wouldn’t work since she was moving to Ottawa to do Journalism. Haven’t seen her since that moment.

This also made me think of the time I was cuddling with this one girl and I ended up friend zoning her.

Maybe I’m just overthinking things… as I’m here thinking, improving, accepting my flaws, going through life… The term “Friend Zoning Yourself” was something that I thought I’d ever come across.

I can say that I have had opportunities in my life to approach a girl. Some given, some missed, some completely ignored. I dunno… I think I’m making it more complicated than it looks…

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(0:00) Love Never Felt So Good - Once again, i’ll throw in my opinion. We all know the demo was recorded back in the Thriller era, with the static sound intact, piano and stuff. The rework version number “one” was released as a single last week or two. Found out it was taken down on that same day to be reworked on again with a few more instrumentation, and the matching the acapella correctly with the composition in the second chorus onwards. As much as this song sounds nice, i think its weak next to Xscape, and this is why I prefer the Justin Timberlake remix over this track since it sounds more like a modernized “Off The Wall” song than this track that sounds like something unreleased off the Invincible era, which that era to me is pretty underrated but a lot of songs that were not exactly memorable. To each their own.

(3:54) Chicago - Sounds gangsta, I don’t mind it. Love the strings in the verses. Probably something that I would do. Pretty straightforward composition, not too much and not too little.

(8:00) Loving You - One of the best Timbaland and Harmon as ever done. Very groovy and I can dance to this. I can tell this song originally was made in the Thriller Era. God, love the stabs, the piano, the harps, the bells, the drums, the pitched down hi-hat rolls. Very creative and perfect for the summer.

(11:15) A Place Without No Name - The next “Leave Me Alone”? Nice composition, I’m not going to lie. Seems like the original was recorded around Dangerous Era or before it. The voice seems pitched down a bit… who knows.

(16:50) Slave to the Rhythm - Planet Rock anybody? lol lets breakdance!

(21:07) Do You Know Where Your Children Are - This sounds like the original was recorded around the Bad Era. This is a real good rework. The snare w/ clap really resembles the bad era music.

(25:43) Blue Gangsta - This remix of the original… Dude… just completely crazy… this goes hard. Using the stems from the original, and adding it to the song and also added new sounds… jesus… the snare and hi-hat work, gawd..

(29:58) Xscape - I think the original is more better than the remixed version. I know Darkchild has been around for a while, but i felt this should’ve been done more justice, maybe Stargate could’ve taken care of this song or Timbaland and Harmon together.

Overall, I give this album a 8/10. A few tracks could’ve been better remade in my opinion. Definitely has replay value. I recommend this album to everyone of all ages.

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  • #Michael Jackson #Xscape #Album #Love Never Felt So Good #Chicago #Loving You #A Place Without No Name #Blue Gangsta #Do You Know Where Your Children Are #Justin Timberlake #Thriller #Bad #Off The Wall #Dangerous #HIStory in the Mix #Invincible #Review #Album Review
  • 2 months ago

Music Is Universal

It’s been a while, thought I contribute something to my blog.

Today is Sunday, I’m playing Tori Kelly’s song, “Confetti.” Father comes in and says in a serious tone, “Every Sunday you don’t play any Gospel music. Don’t you have any regards to God?”

My response: Music is universal.
Father: Tell God that.

Then walks away saying how I’m gonna need him (as if I’m ungodly and shit). Same thing happened when I was singing Prince Song, “Kiss”, a few months back and he asked me if I even read my Bible or care about God anymore.

Everybody has their own views on music; What songs people like or dislike, and what people like / dislike about the songs they hear. There are SO many songs composed out there in the world for EVERYBODY to listen! You got music that motivate you in life, you got music that glorifies something or someone, you got music that can get you out of bad situations, make you feel good, turn your bad day into a good day. Why I decided to play Tori Kelly’s Song, “Confetti”? Cause it’s one of my favourite songs that talks about living for right now; that love is more bigger than fame and fortune, etc. But you have some black Christians (or Christians in general) who love talking shit saying “Today is the Lord’s Day”, asking me “why I’m playing songs that don’t talk about God?” and telling me to change the song… and they have never heard the song before.

I don’t listen to Hillsong or anything sounding like Hillsong, period. It turns me off, its annoying, regardless if they are a group glorifying God with their music, and I’m not into old time religion shit either. And I shouldn’t have to be forced to listen to whatever Christians listen to just because its a Sunday or just because I’m a Christian, myself. I appreciate all forms of music. If music never existed, the world would be dead and you wouldn’t have your music to glorify God with anyway, and their wouldn’t be singers / rappers / composers / producers like myself sharing music to the world.

I will never stop somebody from listening to whatever songs that person wants to listen to, but don’t stop me from what I want to listen. Music is universal and it makes the world go round. If your God believes that I’m being disrespectful towards him by playing Tori Kelly, Michael Jackson, Prince, Luther Vandross, or even Lupe Fiasco… then you have a problem. That’s just me; it’s to each their own anyway.

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  • #Lupe Fiasco #Tori Kelly #Luther Vandross #Music #Universal #Indian #Asian #Western #Producer #Composer #Michael Jackson #Love #Sex #Magic #Life #Christianity #Holy #Secular
  • 2 months ago
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Liking Someone Who Is Thousands of Miles Away?

I’ve thought about this for a couple of years of my teenage life til now. Having feelings for a male (if you’re a girl) / female (if you’re a guy) who is thousands of miles away.

I’ve been in these situations before, where you find a beautiful girl that you click with in a heartbeat, and you start talking to her nonstop, sending her emoticons showcasing your feelings, etc. Then comes the part where you want to be serious with her; she feels the same way about you. And the questions kick in such as, “How is this going to work out?”, “What sacrifices will I (or the other person) have to make?”, “What will others think of me?”, stuff like that. I’ve read stories online about people’s experiences and if its worked out or not. I’m not even going to look at statistics for this. I’m a big believer in love and that love knows no boundaries, but I do think its evident that its not for most people around the world. Only a few have made this happen, and I think its growing at a rapid pace, whether its interracial or not.

Something like this has happened to me with two females. One from Florida and another from Missouri. Talked to Girl One from Florida for about 5 years, decided I wanted to meet her since I was planning a 2 week vacation there. She wanted to meet me as well, but after the two weeks, it never happened. Complications arose on her end. Now for Girl Two, it only lasted for probably a good month online. Now she has a child by another man. Happy for her regardless.

I thought at that point, it was probably time for me to pack it up with meeting women through the internet and continue living my life in the music world (heh heh), then a few months down the road, I started remembering one female whom I first met in Jamaica when I was 18 and on vacation back in Summer 2009. Mixed girl, same age as me and lives in Germany. Exchanged contacts and we’ve been talking on and off for over four years til now. After four years of talking to this girl, today I decided to express my feelings towards her. She feels the same way about me. So now I’m back on the train (well technically since I met her face to face 4 years back).

I could tell you, “No! Don’t do it! It’s a waste of time! You’re better off finding a woman here in xyz”. But for those who are experiencing this as I currently am now, I believe there will be sacrifices that you have to make (whatever it may be), a lot of obstacles in your way. We all have that issue where we don’t have the money to actually fly to that person’s area and see them. You’ll have more doubters than supporters of your decisions that you make. If you really want to make this work, keep the faith, work hard to make ends meet, like, from the bottom up. Stay positive ALL THE WAY THROUGH. The outcome of your work? Only time will tell…

I’m not just speaking to everyone out there that reads this, I’m also speaking to myself who is currently in this situation (again). I don’t wanna sit around and wait for something to happen. I rather take action and make the most of my time achieving goals. The day will come when you and that person you have feelings for, will be in each others arms.

If you have any questions or comments, you can answer this blog.

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  • #long distance relationships #love #romance #thousand miles #away
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